color in the dark...

Winter is a test…a test of our endurance.  It looks us square in the eyes some days, and teases us on others…here in Seattle, our Winter has been mild, too mild, strangely mild, the kind of weather that makes you feel there is DEFINITELY something wrong with our global climate and it's here, right here, slapping us in the face, trying to tell us, "wake up stupid!"  despite, the temperature, days are grey, moss is everywhere, and dark comes early.  How do i get through?  well, i've pledged to myself that this will be one way, to try to type a few thoughts, honestly, openly, a few days a week, while listening to dark, yet oddly uplifting music, right now, Sia, "elastic heart" is playing (just a little too loud for a Monday before noon).  Winter, i have come to believe, is not a time when we deny how we feel, but instead, a time to let the darkness come in, let it challenge you, look it back in the eyes, and say, "you can't bring me down because i accept you."  this is part of life's cycle, dark days, dark moods that make the light and color that much better.  Let yourself feel blue, maybe cry if you need to, put a sweater on, boil some water, drink HOT tea (lots of it), and then, if it's raining (even pouring), put your raincoat on, go out and LET it get you wet, sopping wet, angry wet.  When you come home, dry off, take a warm shower, make a fire, and start all over again.  This too shall pass, Spring will come, but until then, find color in the dark...

Posted on February 9, 2015 .